Moving to the Seaside

So, we really are moving. We have a sign outside our house to prove it!!

I am really looking forward to it. I am looking at it as the next chapter to our lives. My only fear is maybe I'm a little bit too hopeful that it is going to change our lives. I want it to mean so much. To name a few:

• Stuart gets a better work-life balance so he gets to spend more quality time with Callum - maybe even do some father-son stuff together.
• Stuart and I get to spend more couple time together so we can focus on our relationship again - feel like it has been put on the back burner for a couple of years now.
• Stuart and I can start going body-boarding properly rather than just an attempt when we go to Devon/Cornwall - I'll worry about fitting back into the wetsuit later...
• Callum will get to grow up near the sea and beach
• I can start horseriding
• Going running along the beach

OK so that was more than a few. My fears:

• I'm pinning too much hope on the hole move and I am going to be disappointed when things don't plan out how I hope.

I usually love change. I get so excited by it - its all new and its the mystery of what that change will hold and how it will shape your new life. However, I am starting to learn. Once the change actually happens, I am often disappointed that things aren't as great or exciting as I hoped.

• Callum having to go to one nursery for 6 months, moving and going to a different for a bit and also thinking about applying for schools all around that time.
• My career - will I find another job and one that I enjoy. How will this affect our family plans (did I just write that down? Family plans? More than the family we have? Have I really only had one glass of wine?). Will I have opportunity to throw myself into it as much as I hope I will.
• Friends - the ones we leave behind, the ones we are yet to meet, the ones we wont meet

I guess all these fears are natural and only time will tell. We wont know until we try.

Following on from my last post - you will notice there is no mention of the acting. It appears I've moved on again from that for the moment.

Well Hello There

So, this is my first blog post. Well not ever, just on this blog.

I have another blog but it is about my life as a mummy and is often more about my son Callum than me. I am finding an increasing need for a space I can just...well, there is no easy way to put it, I guess moan. Somewhere to get out all my thoughts whether negative or positive really to help me make sense of them.

I guess my first post is going to be a pretty boring one but where I can I will try to keep it slightly entertaining rather than just a flat out moan. I can't guarantee it though as my writing style varies.

Themes that might emerge:

• I like to moan
• I like wine
• I am constantly on a battle between diet and being free to enjoy my life
• Which leads to a battle with the mirror - anyone else find that they look lovely when there aren't any mirrors around but as soon as you step in front of one, and likewise video cameras, still cameras, shop windows etc, you pile on pounds, your hair goes lank, your skin spotty and greasy and the glam you turns into the drab, frumpy, no style impostor that stares back at you. I think I will give her a new name...Deidre! (just close enough to dreary - no offence meant to all those named dreary, I mean Deidre out there)
• I am frustrated by my lack of independence
• I frequently change my mind about what I want to be when I grow up - it is currently an actress but will go between this, a horse owner (or rider would do), a surfer chick, a professional career woman, a super fitness freak that rides, runs, climbs, body-boards and more, a stunning and glamorous super-mummy...I may even venture back to wanting to be an amazing house-wife. Now this last one I've tried and didn't rate so am in no hurry to go back but I am sure there will be times!!!

I am sure there will be others but the list given is a good place to start.

So, about me - more than I've just told you:

I am married to Stuart and it will be our fifth wedding anniversary in May (where did that time go?). We have a son called Callum who is 2 and 5 months (how did that happen?). I am an IT Trainer working in the public sector. I like my job but it doesn't stretch me as such and can be quite dull at times. The people I work with are lovely and it is a great environment but the public sector is very different to the corporate environment I left behind over 3 years ago - quite old fashioned, stuck in its ways and frustratingly slow. Not to mention the decision making process - just don't get me started. But it has been a fantastic stepping stone after over 2 years of baby cooking and then nurturing and has done wonders for my confidence in many ways.

That'll do to get us started but will come back very shortly with thoughts of family growth, relationships and more - bet you are on tenterhooks! Will try not to keep you in suspense (or suspended) for too long.

Ciao for now!...don't roll your eyes, I could have said ta ta for now!!!